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Shields of Paper

If you have a book you want me to read, tell me here. I'll read it and perhaps I'll write about it along with my own books. That or ask me something, it matters not. I like talking to strangers.

To be fair, he really should have clarified this a lot earlier. I don’t think you’re to blame that much for the entire situation.

Prolly, but talking to him I could tell he felt bad about it, because he honestly though I understood. When he realized how I felt, he freaked out and stopped texting me until we talked about it. So yeah, it was both of us, but I’m being hard on myself because… I don’t even know why. Because I feel like shit and that’s what I do.

:/

I know, right? But I have nobody to blame but myself. I’m just not too bright when it comes to this shit.

omg what happened

It’s so pitiful, it might as well be fucking hilarious. That guy I recently wrote about? We were on two completely separate pages. He needed a best friend and somebody to be there for him, and he thought that’s what I was. I thought that us getting closer was exactly that, us getting closer. Like, a relationship. And when he finally understood, he felt like crap. Because he’s not attracted to me like that, and has told me he tried but I’m just not the type he finds physically attractive. But he doesn’t want to just end things, because we’re really good friends and I’ve mentioned what happened with the other people in his life.

So I feel like I’m in between a rock and a hard place. I can either take some time and try to be his friend and be there when he starts seeing somebody else, or I can move up my plans to move away and just leave, which is kind of horrible for him because he needs somebody he can trust. So both of us are all “…What now?” and I’m just… Well I wished this had happened sooner so I could take a few days to be totally drunk but now I’m back at work soooo. >_>

Yeah. I fucked up because I’m incapable of reading people or situations.

Really, I feel both like a fucking moron and totally self conscious again because my mind defaults to “Why am I not good enough?” which is a bad thing to let myself think.

So, I’m usually right about things. Like, it’s an ongoing saying at work and even with some family that I know everything and that I’m always right. Always. But boy, when I am wrong about something, it’s really fucking bad.

Like… Fuck. Seriously, my first instinct is literally to transfer to a new store, sell as much of my stuff as I can, and just move far away. Not even kidding, that was my first thought, and I’m still considering it.

It’s a terrible thing, I think, in life to wait until you’re ready. I have this feeling now that actually no one is ever ready to do anything. There is almost no such thing as ready. There is only now. And you may as well do it now. Generally speaking, now is as good a time as any.

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Been thinking of more tattoos lately

I def want to add more to the two ravens on my back. I want to do a lot of water color splashes behind them, blues on one side and reds on the other, not too heavy. And then just some solid black lines criss-crossing along my upper back as well because I like how stuff like that looks on top of color.

Then I want something on my left shoulder. Since I have Huginn and Muninn from Norse Mythos already, I like the idea of using Yggdrasil. I know, trees are over done but fuck that, I want it. Besides, tree designs lend themselves pretty well to additions later on if I want to go for a quarter or half sleeve.

Here’s a design I really like by “TheElysian”, though if I use it I don’t think I’ll keep the animals. And I’d really like to have one of the roots extend on one side around my arm, then connect to a solid line across my chest, and then onto my right arm (I maaay have seen something similar on a gay porn star).

Love the beard and haircut! You are the most handsome guy! If I were only 20 years younger... LOL! :) asked by Anonymous

Haha, well thanks!

I’m drinking and I want to watch Cabin in the Woods, but I’m a scaredy cat. Sigh. Why don’t I have anybody to cuddle with to watch it?

malephoto:

Cisco Hernandez | ph. Rome Grant

malephoto:

Cisco Hernandez | ph. Rome Grant

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wander-to-the-stars-above:

I have too many books but also not enough books and I also have no space for books but I will make space for books

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